I really do want a new dollfie. I want it so much ;A; But there's a problem. I have to sell Haiku if Im gonna get another one. NOT FAIR! Others are getting money from everywhere and I get only 62€/month and all is going to my living. FOOD FOR MONTH. Christmas is coming and Im not getting any money as a present. Not even at my bday. Not fair. And I need a new camera too. I has no money for anything! IM SO SICK OF BEING A POOR STUDENT! I planned that in next year I'll get TWO dolls. I don't think that it's going to work like that. I'll get one doll if I sell my first one, my baby ;__; And if I stop this whole dollfie thing, I can buy a new camera. SHIT. And then I have more money to cosplay. VERY HARD DECISION. And it's nice to date a girl who has almost everything she wants.. Now she's getting a new camera, an expensive one even her camera is FUCKING GOOD ONE. She says that it's broken but it's not. I guess she just wants a new one. u_u oh, and she's getting one new doll soon. WHERE THE HELL IS SHE GETTING THE MONEY?! Oh yes, mom/dad pays. i forgot. Spoiled one. I had to sell my beloved drums to buy a body for Haiku. FFFFFFFFUUUUUUUuuuck!

There's one thing too what pisses me off.. One of my best friends ever won't talk to me anymore. Hates me now. Talks with my gf now but not me. Does this stink or what?

WHAT HAVE I DONE WRONG?!


To the dollthings again. My next beloved doll will be ITAMI. I don't yet know is he going to be AS Lucifer or Delf Lishe dreaming.. HARD IS.